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Tuesday, January 29th, 2013
11:52 pm
STILL ACTIVE
did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Wednesday, November 7th, 2012
12:10 am
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Wednesday, July 11th, 2007
2:55 am
So we leave for BC this monday the 16th. I work closes all the way up til. Will be back sometime in early august.

Current Mood: sleepy
1 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Wednesday, June 20th, 2007
12:11 am
In honour of the legend I saw tonight
Birds flying south to the one I love
Birds flying light and free
Don't tell my darling that you saw me
Looking the way you see me
Winds blowing warm to the one I love
Winds please kiss her for me
Don't tell my darling that you saw me
Looking the way you see me
The way you see me is how I've been
And how ever since she's been gone
But tell her you saw me like I'd like to be
Tell her I'm happy alone
River of tears that I have cried
River flow on to the sea
But if you tell my darling
You flowed from my eyes
She'd see me the way you see me
She'd see me the way you see me
1 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Thursday, June 14th, 2007
1:44 am
How many times can I say I'm sorry (It's all the rage)
Just to say we're sorry,
For the black eyes and bleeding lips.
And it's hard to forget
How many lies we've told.

Or how old we'd grow,
Before I said goodbye.
So let's scrape our knees on the playground.

It's not your fault,
You feel okay.
It's too late in the day.
It's not your fault,
You feel betrayed.
You can't come out to play.

I never listened to a word you never said.
I never listened to a word you never said.

Wasting the hours now,
We're all suckers for tragedies.
And start this over again,
And you bring us to our knees.

As sunrise comes,
And the story will sell,
A few hundred papers,
So we'll follow you up.

It's not your fault,
You feel okay.
It's too late in the day.
It's not your fault,
You feel betrayed.
You can't come out to play.

I never listened to a word you never said.
I never listened to a word you never said.

So raise your hands up high,
And let this rain pour on.
So raise your hands up high,
And wash us away.

Like innocence and childbirth,
You look just like your mother
And you look just like your father.
Forgive him our father,
Your son is smiling,
So lay roses around you.





So I've been trying to be more independent lately. Trying not to have to fall onto somebody everytime I'm having a bad day. For now it's really hard as I've been having a bit of a sense of distorted reality. But it's okay because as each day goes by I know that I can handle it on my own if I have too. I've been going to movies by myself lately, part to get out of the house, and part to do things solo and not freak out as a result. It's really strange to be so dependent on constant reassurance that you're going to be okay, rather than just knowing that you will be. No worries eitherway. Everyday seems the same, filled with the same feelings and emotions, but hey, consistency is a good thing, no more extreme highs and lows. Fixing myself is the most important thing right now. I've been growing more confrontational, in a good way, I'm tired of being alone inside my head so it feels good to get it out. Struggling to re-establish myself to myself proves to be a worthy challenge, but one day at a time. On another note I'm sick, my throat hurts like a bitch, and I don't know who to thank for that, Adrian or Amie.

Current Mood: blank
1 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Saturday, June 9th, 2007
10:12 pm
Dir en Grey to be in Winnipeg. Another addition on the list of things I thought I'd never see.
1 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Tuesday, June 5th, 2007
4:08 pm
This is all a huge steaming pile of unbelievable bullshit. Believe me I know more than anyone how this all sounds, but for fucks sake would anyone listen to me when I say it's not what you think. Noooo. I guess I can't expect you too anyway, so believe whatever you want. I certainly don't expect anyone to try and make me feel better about it. So just go ahead and please help Amie through it, I'll deal with my side of it alone.

Current Mood: aggravated
3 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Thursday, May 31st, 2007
2:09 am
If you ask I will do what you say
[Whispering:]
We don't need to whisper

I should have turned back
I should have known better
Than to walk away defeated
I'll say it tonight, I'll say it forever
And this time I really swear I mean it

Oh I need you now
The Earth fell fast asleep
This room is safe and sound
Will you lay here with me
And feel it..

I think I like today
I think its good
Its something I can't get my head around

True love is something that comes easy
Just one kiss god I swear I want to...
I heard a pin drop and a nervous heartbeat
Have you ever heard me scream I love you

Oh I need you now
The Earth fell fast asleep
This room is safe and sound
Will you lay here with me
And feel it..

I think I like today
I think it's good
Its something I can't get my head around

dadah da dah dah dadadah

I think I like today
I think it's good
Its something I can't get my head around

I'm frightened at night, and the wind has a roar
It seeps through the hall, and from under the door
Like the shit that was said
I can't take it that well
I give and I give and I give and I give and I'm still
Lost and hurt and bone thin from the love that's been starved
I know I got close but I'm sure it's too far
From the point of suspense, we know it should be
The end of the part, of our favorite movie
When the guy grabs the girl and gives her his hand
Says take me away from this torturous land
Cause the grave is set up, the hole that I dug
I gave and I gave and I gave and I gave you my trust
Like the time that we kissed, and you gave me a lie
To act off this scene you pretended to cry
But I'm here and I'm cool, the way that it is
Just give me a chance and I'll try to forgive

And I don't know
And I can't guess
It's gonna be O.K.
But now, my last wish
Is that you do this with me
Kiss me here, and hold my hand
Let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can
Won't you do it for me now

I really had it with the rain and the tears
The predictable storm that has come every year
And it sneaks from the shore with the bat in its hand
I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I can't
You're a thief and a witch, but I love you to death
You steal my heart and curse under your breath
But the one thing that I can most willing prove
That when you are gone I'll be fine without you

And I don't know
And I can't guess
It's gonna be OK
But now, my last wish
Is that you do this with me
Kiss me here, and hold my hand
Let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can
Won't you do it for me now?

Now just hold on, hold on to me
Hold on, hold on to me (hold on to me)

Current Mood: drained
did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Tuesday, May 29th, 2007
2:11 am
The last good offspring song
If you could only read my mind
You would know that things between us
Ain't right
I know your arms are open wide
But you're a little on the straight side
I can't lie

Your one vice
It's you're too nice
Come around now can you see

I want you
All tattooed
I want you bad

Complete me
Mistreat me
want you to be bad bad bad bad bad

If you could only read my mind
You would know that I've been waiting
So long
For someone almost just like you
But with attitude, I'm waiting
so come on

Get out of clothestime
Grow out those highlights
Come around now can't you see

I want you
In a vinyl suit
I want you bad

Complicated
X-rated
I want you bad, bad, bad, bad, bad
Bad

Don't get me wrong
I know you're only being good
But that's what's wrong
I guess I just misunderstood

I want you
All tattooed
I want you bad

Complicated
X-rated
I want you bad

I mean it
I need it
I want you bad, bad, bad, bad, bad
Bad, really really bad

Current Mood: dirty
did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Sunday, May 27th, 2007
7:54 am
what else is it for if not to post lyrics
This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late

Current Mood: tired
did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Friday, May 25th, 2007
5:34 pm
I watched you walk away
Helpless, with nothing to say
I strain my eyes
Hoping to see you again

This is my curse (the longing)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the yearning)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?
Will you be there?

Your silence haunts me
But still I hunger for you

This is my curse (the wanting)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the needing)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?

Still I want
And still I ache
But still I wait
To see you again

Dying, inside, these walls (2x)

And I see your face in these tears? In these tears
And I see your face...

There is love (8x)

Current Mood: calm
did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Thursday, May 24th, 2007
3:01 pm
My work now has the internet. Unfortunately they've totally disabled most anything good. Can't download, no flash, no MSN, no java, etc. So I can't listen to music or watch video, HOWEVER, I can still access myspace and LJ. Which means that I can keep in touch with my beloved fan base at work. I suppose PM-ing me on myspace would be the easiest way so I don't flame my journal.

Current Mood: accomplished
1 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Thursday, May 17th, 2007
2:24 am
would you look at me now
to prove I'm a man

Current Mood: artistic
3 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Wednesday, May 16th, 2007
9:20 pm
I post lyrics mostly
So it's lost
Lose it all in one place
You lose it in your own race
A race against all the types

'Cause you can't find your dreams
Locate your memories
They're stolen
And they could be mine again

Come back to me
To the boy who loved, to the boy who knew what was good
Come back to me
To the man who longed for his innocence

So it's hard
Say goodbye when it left
When it waved to you in a crowd
A crowd of hungry giants

'Cause you can't find your dreams
Locate your memories
They've run off
Into the crowd again

Come back to me
To the boy who loved, to the boy who knew what was good

Come back to me
To the man who longed for his innocence

Na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
(2x)
Na, na

I wasn't looking
On the day I lost what mattered most to me
It must have been your smile
'Cause I noticed that there was something missing

I wasn't looking
On the day I lost what mattered most to me
It must have been your smile
'Cause I can't seem to find love anymore

Come back to me
To the boy who loved, to the boy who knew what was good
Come back to me
To the man who longed for his innocence

Come back to me
When faith was born our of love that I saw in the world
Come back to me
To the man who longed for...

Current Mood: okay
did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Sunday, May 13th, 2007
8:24 am
I love this song
who said that I wasn't right?
I've lived for years without a life
don't have a soul on my side
still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried
don't take me under your wing
I don't need a hand, don't need anything
I've got a roof over my head
as if I'd rather be alone with me instead

close yet far
drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are
and I'll tip my hat to those who can't believe it's me
though I never never never ever wanted this to be

I can hear the sounds of the city
sunrise and set are the same to me
a hesitating pulse is good company
and my reflection offers no apology
but who said that I wasn't right?
and I've lived for years without a life
don't have a soul on my side
still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried

close yet far
drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are
and I'll tip my hat to those who can't believe it's me
though I never never never ever wanted this to be

close yet far
drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are
and I'll think of the days when there was something to believe
though I never never never ever wanted this to be
did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Tuesday, May 8th, 2007
7:48 pm
Going to see Spiderman 3 today, and Ima eat at Moxies.
Cut the grass at our new house today for the first time ever. Sadly our beloved lawn is no longer a virgin.
4 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Monday, May 7th, 2007
5:22 am
I've got a mohawk!
I miss the way things used to be
I miss the way I used to see
I miss the way we used to talk
I miss the way it meant so much
I miss the life I used to live
I've lived the past months of my life in worry, fear and regret
I've lost sight in who I used to be
I love, I hate, I laugh, I cry, I'm scared, I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm happy, I'm tired, I'm awake, I'm alive, I'm glad, I feel it all at once.
I wish I could see you once again, and remember how much it helped.
I know its been a couple years, and far apart we've grown.
It's been so long we're all grown up would you recognize me now.
I helped you through some tough times I hope, as you've helped me deal with mine.
I need your help once again I've kept every letter you wrote.
I know lifes tough and I can deal with that,I know that it all gets better.
There was a time we became so close, at least that's how I saw it.
I still can't help but remember your kindness, your intelligience and your beauty.
You were the most real feeling in my life, and I hope I meant something to you.
I know I probably don't mean much anymore, yet still,
I want, I wish, to read your words again and remember who I was.

Current Mood: nostalgic
6 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Friday, October 20th, 2006
11:00 pm
My Birthday. I'm looking at probably the Monday Oct 30 for some sort of get together somewhere. But as I'm not living someplace where alcohol is allowed or parties, it's going to be hard. But I'm sure a solution will rise. I have Sun the 29 off I work 8-4 on my birthday, Mon the 30, and I have Tuesday the 31 off. So if Monday doesn't work and you want to do something in a smaller group we could do something early on Sunday or tuesday.
5 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Wednesday, October 18th, 2006
1:48 am
I've been listening to the new Killswitch Engage tracks the new album As Daylight Dies is coming out Nov. 26 apparently.
-This fire burns (amazing)
-As Daylight Dies (amazing)
-For You (amazing)
Checks 'em out everyone. I hope their cover of Holy Diver is on there as well.
4 did not bite their thumb at thee| did you bite your thumb at me, sir?
Sunday, October 15th, 2006
3:22 pm
only 52%....this quiz doesn't get me *sob*
[x] I have pale skin.
[] I have dyed my hair black.
[] I have a funky hair cut involving strands that stick up.
[] My hair covers one eye.
[] I wear black eyeliner.
[x] I own dozens of band tee-shirts.
[ ] I wear very tight pants.
[ ] I own Vans or Chuck Taylors.
[x]I wear mostly black, black and red, or black and hot pink.
[x] I am sensitive.
[ ] Mean people call me "pyscho" or a "loser" sometimes.
[ ] I cut myself.
[x] I'm obsessed with blood.
[x]I cry too much.
[x] I'm typically "depressed".
[x] I listen to Hawthorne Heights (don't judge me!!!!!)
[x] I have low self-esteem.
[x] I'm quiet and shy.
[x] I write poetry.
[x] I relate most things in life to song lyrics.
[ ] My Myspace name has or had included a word like Murderer, Killer, Homocide, Thrash, Death, Horror, Massacre, Rage, Lonely, Broken, or Alone.
[ ] I have lyrics in my room.
[] I hate my life.
[x] My parents don't understand me most of the time....
[x] "non-conforming".
[] I paint my nails black.
[] I wear makeup.
[] I say things like "slit my throat" and "cut my wrists".
[x] I go to lots of concerts.
[ ] I wear my little sister or brother's clothes.
[x] Sometimes I feel "suffocated".
[ ] My girlfriend or boyfriend looks a lot like me.
[x] My friends and I have basically the same clothes.
[x]I hate preps.
[x] I have a facial piercing.
[ ]I look up to Sonny Moore.
[x] I have strong opinions about the bands I like.
[ ] I'm medicated for my emotions.
[ ] Sometimes I cry myself to sleep.
[x] Little things really bother me.
[ ] I've had a lot of breakups.
[x] I usually have a very blank facial expression.
[ ] I rarely seem excited.
[x] I wonder about the point of my exsistence.
[x] Sometimes I think about suicide.
[x] I like to be alone.
[ ] No one "gets" me.
[x] I'm dying inside.


Count up your x's and times them by 2. thats the % of how emo you are!
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